Monday, September 20, 2010

Obsessed with my New Life

Maybe it's just the newness of my situation, but I feel obsessed with my Lap Band lifestyle. Pre-op I was obsessed with getting started - constantly reading blogs, gathering books and info, reading about people's experiences on the ObesityHelp forums, finding recipes, and researching/buying gadgets that might help me post-op. I thought that once I had the surgery and could actually BEGIN, I would stop the obsessiveness, but it hasn't stopped yet.

I can't wait to go back to normal. I can't concentrate on work or on home. I just think about my weight, my progress, and my slimmer future 24/7. At work I'm looking at blogs, looking at recipes, and reading forums instead of work. I also just itch to exercise because during the working hours is when I have energy. But no, I have to be here strapped to my desk!

I hope that this is just a phase and that eventually my brain calms down and goes back to normal. My lack of interest in other aspects of my life is alarming. My usual hobbies are falling to the wayside in favor of more "research" about my new life as a WLS patient. It's not a completely negative thing - I think it shows how serious I am about making this work for me, but it does stress me out a bit because I have other things I should be doing and I don't want to do them.

It's like I need a week-long sabatical from work so that I can spend the whole week obsessing over all this guilt-free and maybe that would get it out of my system? LOL


Drazil said...

I so get like this - obsess over whatever is current in my life. I think everyone does it.

Angela said...

I am trying not to be obsessed. I know the feeling.

So happy to follow you along. :)

Bonnie said...

Thanks so much for your comment on my birthday post. I just wanted you to know that you are my new best friend for saying I look like I could be 32. That is the one plus side with having some extra fat - I think it makes me look younger.

You are not alone and you are not weird for being so wrapped up in living with the lapband right now. It's still new and you want to be successful. I feel the same way. But as you know from other's blogs, in time you will settle down and the band won't be foremost in your mind 24/7.