Pensacola Beach - Clothes - Water Aerobics - Steam Room

Welcome to my new followers: Manda (who is new to the band and blogging so go check her out!) and Camille from over at Living Large in C.C.! Thanks for follwing!

Pensacola Beach
I just booked 2 nights in Pensacola for Memorial Day weekend and I am SO EXCITED. I have missed Pensacola and I'm ready to get back there this year. Last year's BP mess was a real downer and I'm ready to go back to PCB and help the economy a little. Granted, I booked the cheapest hotel room imaginable ($42 bucks a night!). We are budget beach-goers because well, we have to be. We stay in Pensacola and drive to the beach each day. I don't have to be ON the beach, I just gotta get there. We eat sandwiches and may have one nice dinner out, and then we can have a mini-vacation for like $300. I love living 4 hours from a fantastic beach. I'm SO pale right now, so unless I wanna get scorched out there, I've gotta be my tan on! I'm not really happy with my "beach body", but whatev. The great thing about PCB is that southern beaches are so non-judgmental. You see all kinds of things you wish you could "unsee" - folks let it all hang out. Memorial day weekend is a busy time in PCB, but we'll get there early and it'll all be good. Yippee!

I hope by the end of May I can be into an even smaller swimsuit even if that means I gotta buy another one. Changes sizes can be so expensive. I wish I could ditch the grandma suits, but my legs are awfully saggy :( I think that is my least favorite thing about the weight loss...the saggy inner thighs. I can deal with the sag in other places, but that one just...ugh. Very self-conscience about that one.

Spring/Summer Clothes
I have NO CLOTHES for spring/summer. It gets hot here FAST and I'm still wearing polyester black pants and boots. I've gotta do something, but I haven't been able to find anything cheap enough. I went to Ross yesterday and didn't see anything. I need some stuff in the $10 or less range. Some khaki capri pants and stuff like that. I do have some skirts that should still work, but I gotta hit the tanning bed up again. Then I gotta get a pedicure so I can put some nail polish over my ugly bruised toe! That way I can wear some sandals hahahaha. If anyone out there has some size 22 spring/summer pants they would like to get rid of, let me know!

Exercise
I went to water aerobics on Monday night. It was a new routine from the last time I went. They have bought a water aerobics program that is choreographed and it is SO LAME.  It's slow and just lame. I didn't do anything last night except run errands - I'm trying to slow down a little so that I can feel better. This pain is seriously taking a toll on me. Tonight, I'm not sure what I'll do. Maybe the lame water aerobics again or eliptical?

Steam Room
Omg. I wish I had one of these at my house. The main reason I might do lame water aerobics tonight is just so I can go to the steam room afterwards. I love it. LOVE LOVE LOVE it. It makes you feel so good and healthy somehow! LOL And, between the saltwater pool and the steam, my skin is loving it. I wish I had my own steam room so I can steam for 15-20 minutes and then go straight to bed. It's the ultimate in relaxing.

The Only Outfit I Still Like

Here is the only outfit I still like as per my last post. I LOVE this little jacket. It has the cutest little ruffle-ly thing going on. I am going to be sad when it no longer fits. I might even have to have it tailored. LOL  The pants are ones I just bought, but they are already getting too big. I bought another pair the next size down and they fit perfectly, but I haven't washed them yet, so I'm still wearing the larger ones. Please excuse the poor lighting. They were taken in the ladies room (classy, yes, I know!) and the lighting is so bad that it makes things blurry.

I Wish Wednesday

I wish I had more money for clothes. I just looked at myself in the ladies' room mirror and I look ridiculous. I wish I could go home and change clothes. I look like I have on pajamas. Everything is baggy and stupid looking. I might actually change clothes during lunch today I am so embarrassed. I look fatter than I actually am too...my body is hiding under all the shapeless clothing I have on.

I think I might have to break down and buy a few things. I just didn't want to spend too much on clothes that might not fit by the end of fall... I already checked all my discount stores and I couldn't find any cheap stuff (at least not cheap enough for the likes of me, Ms. Frugal Pants). Everything on clearance right now is capri pants and what-not and I need long pants for fall/winter...

The Monday Rundown

So, I thought that today's blog post would be best served as a bulleted rundown of my weekend and thoughts, so here we go!

• How come when you lose weight and go clothes shopping, you see a GAZILLION items that would have fit you before, but nothing that would fit you now? I saw 4x & 5x bargains GALORE, but nothing that would fit me now. Dang it :(
• I need boots for the fall/winter and while my feet are also shrinking, I still have clown feet and I need an 11W at the very least. So, I ordered some from Jessica London online and I'm hoping that they will fit OK and be comfy. It's so hard to tell. *Le Sigh*
• I did get a pair of work pants for $6.99 and they were size 22/24...and they were roomy because that particular style was extremely roomy. But, it still made me feel good :)
• Food has been all around me for the last 5 or so days...I've been eating it, but only in small portions. It's been hard because some of it has been slider foods, so I could eat a lot more of it than I should. But all-in-all, my willpower is there and I think I've been handling it well all things considered. Thursday night was a banquet with a Tuscan theme, Friday I invited mom over for dinner, Sunday was my FIL's Bday, and today is a free lunch buffet with my co-workers at the Italian restaurant in the conference center here. I'm doing fine with it...still losing, but I can't wait for all the temptations to be over! 
• I'm starting to understand that whole "I'm still a fat girl on the inside" mentality. Well, partly because I'm faaaaaar from goal weight. I mean I just started! But, everyone tells me how good I'm looking, whereas I feel better and can tell the difference, I still have a hard time seeing it sometimes...especially when picking out clothes...I have a hard time deciding what I can fit in because I haven't been this size in....maybe High School! I dunno...I didn't have a scale back then and I didn't keep up. It seems like I've been "the biggest size they carry" since I was in grade school.
• I need to get into the exercise routine. I've been doing a lot of shopping and walking around, but I'd feel more like I was doing something productive if I at least did the wii fit a few times a week. I'm really bad about incorporating exercise. I'm hoping that the more I lose, the more I'll want to because moving will be easier on my knees.
• I still have some incredibly annoying muscle pulls & aches/pain in my left side near the port area and back toward my back. It's like I did an oblique work-out from hell or something...
• I updated my "about me" section with a photo of me and my wonderful husband. He is a huge part of my success and a great support. Don't judge our corny cruise portraiture...it's like prom pics for adults, but I love them anyways! hahaha :)
• I added a "my journey" page at the top that tells the story of my process to get banded. It might be of interest to anyone who is still in the process of getting approved.
• Thanks to all my new followers and for everyone's comments! I get so excited when I see someone else has followed me and comments on what I'm saying. It means a lot to me :)